Maybe.

Maybe I blog too much. Maybe nobody cares what I have to say. It's a way for me to do something I love to do ( write ) and to express how i'm feeling. Maybe that's what i'm doing wrong. It started as a way to keep my family in Georgia up to date on how i'm doing in Utah. I have no plans to stop blogging.

Maybe I am growing up. Realizing that I don't need the same friends I "needed" growing up. I'm learning that not everybody is dependable. I'm learning that not everybody is at the same "maturity" level as I am. I'm learning that some of my friends aren't the people I thought they were. I learned today i'm okay with letting them go.

Maybe i'm wrong for letting those friends go , Gregg seems to think I am. I don't think so. I think if those people wanted me in their life , they'd make the changes that would put them in my life. They need to realize when you do something stupid that is going to hurt one of my friends who's actually been there for me , i'm not going to keep you around. Or if you do something that isn't my standards.

Maybe getting married has changed me in more ways than I thought. Maybe getting a new name has made me a "new" person. Yes i'm still Afton , i'll always be me. I'm just different too. More grown up than I ever thought I could be. Being married has changed me for the better. A lot of people have noticed , and you know what ? A lot of people , including me , like this new me.

So maybe this is the beginning of something good. For once in my life i'm not depressed or scared of my future. I'm hopeful. Big things are headed my way , and i'm excited.