Have you ever ?

Have you ever felt like you weren't doing enough ?  Or too much ? Have you ever felt like just getting dressed and /or doing your hair , completely changed your day? Felt left behind , yet content all at the same time ?

I've had all these emotions and more ( bring on super in love feeling every day) just in this one week. I've found out that not one , but 3 of my friends are preggo and another 2 are moving into houses. HOUSES people. The ones moving into houses aren't even married yet. Well they will be in like a month , but they already have HOUSES !! Gregg and I are in a tiny apartment. Not too small for us , but small enough . We aren't having a baby. Aren't even thinking about it. ( okay I admit i'm thinking about it , but how could I not with everybody getting pregnant ?)

I'm not ready for a baby. Or a house for that matter. I told Gregg this , and he feels the same way. While i'm really super content with where my life is at I can't help but feel stuck. That's okay because I know i'm where i'm supposed to be for right now. Gregg and I both agree that we can't wait for the day when we're ready for babies ( he wants a girl with my eyes...) and houses , but for right now we're where we need to be. We aren't jealous or longing for that next step. We're happy to be able to just have this time for us. How lucky am I ? I married a great guy who's perfect for me. We're okay financially. Even after I pay my bills. (this week eek!!!) we'll be okay.

My hours have finally gotten lowered at work and the house is getting clean. Gregg is begging me to take a nap since I have to work all day so I guess I should go. I'm just so grateful for my wonderful life.:)