Sick and Tired.

Literally and figuratively.

I really am sick to my stomach and exhausted even though i've slept all day.

More than that I'm sick of the fact that I get married and it's like my own sisters have turned on me. You know how sometimes when you're siblings you hate each other ? I'm pretty sure that's where me and my sisters are right now.

I'm sick of how we used to be tight , but then I made some bad decisions that despite what they say , my sisters still haven't forgiven me for. It's all talk no action. They still gang up on me. I still feel like i'm the odd sibling out. Sometimes I wish I had another sibling that way I'd have someone I could be close to. Then again even if we could divide up evenly it probably wouldn't work out that way. I'm tired of trying to ... to put in effort to get close to my siblings when it will never work. I'm just tired of it all.

I'm also tired of how my sister is closer to my cousin than she is to me. It's like i'm the cousin and my cousin is the sister. My family is supposed to be coming out for Christmas and my sister is more excited to see my cousin than she is to me.

I want Gregg to come home. I don't feel good and i'm hurt.
#donewithtrying.