Just some ramblings

So , this is the most recent picture of my little 15 month old toddler. I can't believe how grown up she's getting!!

In other news I just want to ramble about stuff that's on my mind.

• I'm really proud of Zoe. We've had a Christmas present out in her reach for a week now and she hasn't even touched it. I got brave and put out all our presents at that point. That's when she decides to open JUST ONE. and it was one of ours. ( one for Gregg and I) Other than that she's left our tree and the presents alone. I feel like that's huge for a 15 month old. 
• This might be TMI , but one of my clients at work is a super light sleeper. Her bedroom is right by the bathroom that I get to use if I need to use the restroom. I'm always terrified of going to the bathroom at work because I'm afraid I'll wake her up. I always wait until the moment when it's either she wets her pants or I do. I can change her into different clothes. All I've got is what I'm wearing. 

This one is a lot more difficult to come to terms with. Gregg and I have needed help financially a lot this last year and almost a half ? Anyways. We hate asking for help. We're adults , we're married , we have a baby. We should by all means be able to take care of ourselves. It's kind of embarrassing for us to admit that we need that help.

To me at least it's like...we shouldn't be doing this. If we can't do it on our own , we shouldn't be doing it. It also makes us seem like we spend more than we make , which isn't true. Sort of. We could definitely cut back. (sodas, snacks , even eating out although we don't even do that all that often anymore.) It's just between School , Rent , Groceries , Gas , and Diapers , stuff just starts to add up. Normally we do okay. Then Gregg almost lost his job. ( I say almost because he found a new job and quit before he could get fired) which put us down to just one paycheck. He doesn't start his new job til the 16th , so things are just kind of tight around here.

I just feel like I'm trying to be an adult when I'm still just a child. It's stressful. So , if you don't get Christmas presents from us that's why. We're broke as a joke right now , and aren't really buying anything for each other this Christmas even. It's not just you.

Oh also , did I mention I found out I had inflammation of the inner ear during Thanksgiving , that's just now going away? Basically my inner ear was swollen that from about the beginning of November to eh this last Monday , I've been super dizzy to the point that I couldn't stand up without falling down. That was fun. Good news Is I should be able to drive again soon.

Thanks for sticking through this novel of an emotional post.  In bonus points , Zoe gives real kisses now and whenever she see's anybody kissing, real life or tv , she'll run up to you and want to kiss you. It's adorable.